i feel this, ever since i been home i feel like i’ve been being forced to go to church but i’ll be the main nigga in deep sleep wearing the same clothes every week. i guess they really dont notice my lack of effort.
yeah like.. church should not feel like an obligation. I want to go somewhere that excites me. listen to a pastor that makes me think and offers me words that I can apply to my everyday life instead of begging for money or telling the congregation “God is gonna bless you, just believe!” that shit is chalked. I need a pastor that’s gonna talk about sexism within religious institutions, address controversial but prevalent biblical teachings and welcome those difficult conversations. if that’s asking for too much then I’ll continue attending bedside baptist till christ calls me home. I don’t wanna go to church to say I went to church and feel good about myself. the insincerity is too much nowdays